Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Lost...

Time is running out as beauty slowly vanishes like the sun setting on the sea
All that is left is the inner me and it is ugly and grotesque
It is the darkness that cannot be brought out into the light of day

The tears fall but they cannot quench my desert soul
I cry for what I've lost even though it was never really mine
I thought I could handle this…I thought I knew what I was doing

I've traveled down this road more times than I want to remember, it doesn't get easier
It always ends the same…me naked, emotionally battered, and running for my life
For a brief moment I thought that the catalyst might be the one I could run towards; I'm so stupid

I'm getting so fucking tired of chasing a dream that will never materialize
It wasn't true romance…it was gritty unabridged lust without limits or promises
Foolishly I forgot that sex isn't love, never has been and never will be
This is the one lesson that for some reason I will never learn

Now I see the truth…I am the cataclysmic event
I am the vacuum in space that sucks the life out of love
I am the hungry black hole that extinguishes hope forever

Raging Waters...

I found myself lost on the raging sea of purgatory
There was no choice but to ride out the hurricane of my life
The massive storm kept me from reaching the coastline's safety
Gale force winds blew me further offshore, there was little hope of ever being saved

Staying afloat against all odds, somehow I managed to survive the ruthless maelstrom
Time ate away at my flesh until I was emaciated beyond recognition but my spirit remained
For months I was trapped in the deep valleys created by the mountainous blue waves
Every time I paddled up the face of the gigantic walls of water the ocean would become angry
Helplessly drowning, the salty foam would overpower me and force me under once again

When all hope was lost miraculously I found myself on the crest of a mammoth tidal wave
From this precarious perch high above hell on earth I saw that the skies were beginning to clear
With this new knowledge, my faith in myself was reborn and I fought Poseidon's treachery
The clouds parted allowing the sparkling sunlight to dance playfully on the calm sea's surface
In that pool of light there was a faithful captain who rescued me from my watery grave